My co-worker said to me today that I was kinda weak in clinical knowledge. I tried not to take it seriously and put it in my mind. Because I knew if I did, I would be kind of devastating and unable to concentrate on my work during a day.
Unfortunately, however, things haven't gone as I tried and I couldn't help but wondering myself a while.
I might have thought at first that she was in no position to say such a thing to me since she was absolutely being helped by me and dependant on me. Even so, I think I've never been arrogant or showing over about it. It's basically because she's senior than me and I respect the wisdom she might have gotten in her life. Besides I know the limit of my knowledge and I'd better be humble. So I was always extremely careful when I gave her opinions and advices to not to hurt her feelings.
But the later thing I was thinking about was directly related with my confidence as a professional. Am I really running out of clinical ideas on which I based to help patients and give them a care? It, of course, would be true that it's helpful if I as know as doctors about clinical symptoms. In fact, people in here kinda expect us to be pseudo-doctors and they might blame on me if I don't offer them stuff what they might expect me to have to.
After few hours, I've come to the conclusions. I admit that I am weak in clinical part and I want to know about it more. But I found out that what I want to know about is not things as doctors would do. Diagnosis and treatment are not my areas. Doctoring is not my job but also it's an abuse of authority which is very dangerous. What I gotta learn when it comes to clinical field is somewhat different. What I have to understand well is how the drug actually make it work out in our body systems, observation and study of patients' response to medication. I believe that's what I ought to do as a pharmacist.
Recognizing and freaking out on what she said to me is not shaking confidence, but changing of my belief. And I'm all happy about it cleared.
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